31.5.18

Holding True to Beauty

I've never believed in the idea that you should try to find beauty and fulfillment where your feet are. To me, that seems to deny so many things - your true heart, your self-love, your hope for something better, and your will to move towards what you would prefer. Of course, try to be happy where you are. Look around for loveliness, and appreciate what you have for your sustainment. But never lose sight of what beauty really feels like for you, and never stop striving for it.



photo gingerlillytea


My ideal beauty is an English countryside in the early summer. It is impossible for me to live that dream, for all kinds of practical reasons, unless I was to suddenly come into possession of significant wealth. (Anyone want to buy my next book for two million dollars? I'll use your name for the heroine.)  It is also difficult for me to make a similar dream come true in my home country, because we simply don't have things like oak woods lush with wildflowers, or hedgerows, or the bones of kings and poets beneath our carparks.

But what I can do at least is keep the atmosphere of that beauty within my own heart. I can be myself a flowering wood, a quiet afternoon, a deep well of history and dreaming. I can hold my spirit apart from punga trees and traffic, sticky vines and flowerless gardens. I can refuse to say something is beautiful when I don't feel that it is. Beauty should always remain sacred, true, an ideal, a thing worth fighting for.



photo gingerlillytea


It's ironic I should aver this today, considering my latest project is not especially beautiful or dreamy, but is currently a rather wry tale told in a straightforward style, much like the little fairytales I share here. I've spent months focussing on composing poetic loveliness that gets me nowhere; I'm in the mood for a little fun. But there are still bluebells, magic, and morning birdsong in the story, and I hope the substance of it is a beautiful dream even if the style is more prosaic than my wont.





10 comments:

  1. "(Anyone want to buy my next book for two million dollars? I'll use your name for the heroine.)"

    You are going to be pretty embarrassed when an overweight bald plumber named Ralph offers to buy your book... ;-)

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    1. Lol!! I could make it work... I'm sure! ;-)

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    2. Princess Ralph hated her name. It made her feel overweight, bald, and good with pipes. She was expected marry a debonair prince, but turmoil presented itself like a wave and swept her away to...

      I am sorry to say, that book (and the movie) would be a runaway hit. I just know it.

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    3. I do believe you are right! :-)

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  2. yes, if i win the lottery, only then can i "go home" and live somewhere that feels right---and beautiful---to me... (princess ralph---LOL, sandi!)

    i do think that there is merit in always looking for beauty in one's surroundings. i would feel churlish to neglect the land that i live in. but it is not the beauty-language my own soul speaks. it feels good to know that i am not alone in living mentally somewhere quite different than my actual surroundings.

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    1. i think the home of our heart is often very different from the home of our body.

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  3. You are always welcome to stay at our place in the English countryside - it is especially beautiful this time of year!
    Sadly I don't have a couple million to spare - just a spare room :)
    xx

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  4. 'If I had a million dollars...' (or two!) '...I'd buy you a house...'

    Beauty IS sacred. I love what you have said about it; if we can't find beauty around us, we can nurture it within and embody it.

    If tonight you were given two million dollar, would you leave for the English countryside and find a house to settle in? I always thought I would move to one of the places I love, if I had the opportunity, but then the opportunity came (twice!)in one year, and I didn't go. I can't even rightly explain why.

    I'm so glad your writing is bringing you a bit of fun.♥

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    1. Yes I would definitely go. No question. But a while past I had the chance to visit and didnt take it for a reason no one else understood, and oddly enough I don't regret that even though my mind tells me I should.

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