someday

Susan asked, what is on your list for someday? This.

Someday I will wander through the other island of my country, gathering images, gathering words. Because I think I ought.

Someday I will sit on the dunes at a certain west coast beach, and watch magic stir from the sea as a smile is stirred from me.

Someday I will see her smile as she says, this. Someday he will walk into my kitchen and say hey, and I'll remember how I knew for years that he would.

Someday I will see my own book on a shelf in a bookstore. No more mistakes, no more dreams carrying me smack into a barbed wire fence I knew was there all along. Someday.

Someday I will have the website of my dreams.

Someday I will let my hair grow long again.

Someday I will be one those those girls, the published ones who talk to each other on twitter, never mind everyone else. Except I will mind everyone else. Someday I will make it, even though I have spent my whole life trying to show that there is happiness besides making it ... even though.

Someday I will believe. And maybe then other people will believe too.

Someday I will have my own home.

Someday I will bow my head in England, Ireland, Macedonia, Russia, and thank God for walking with me through this beautiful world, this beautiful scarred life.

Someday I won't have to be so damned strong.

Someday it will be one day, and it will be all about me.

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